The Journey [3]

A series of posts inspired by a line in a nasheed that says;

والله مافي هذه الدنيا الذ من اشتياق العبد للرحمن

It is about a journey that I went through and would like to share it with you all.
We often hear people say that they have no purpose in living. It gets frustrating hearing it coming from a Muslim.. It saddens me more than anything when someone loses hope just because life have treated him unfairly in a way, that he lost something so dear to him that he can't see the point of living. We all go through that. We know how everything can turn gloomy in a matter of seconds and we are left bare and twisting in the dreaded agony of our mishap. Some choose to rise above it and some just get drowned in it, in the thought of having lost 'The Purpose'. So ask yourself this, what is your purpose in living?

If it was for pleasing people, what if they are never pleased no matter what you do?

If it was for reaching a certain goal, what if you realise you have absolutely no chance of getting there?

If it was for being there for someone, what if they leave?

Does your life stop here? Will you wake up everyday wishing you didn't?

It is at this point in time that you have to fully have a bigger meaning in life, a higher purpose than earthly matters which you cling to so that once they fade away, you are still here.

I will discuss more on this topic in part 4 inshAllah.

The Journey [2]

A series of posts inspired by a line in a nasheed that says;

والله مافي هذه الدنيا ألذ من اشتياق العبد للرحمن

It is about a journey that I went through and would like to share it with you all.

When you're feeling down at the end of the night, when the world seems to be spinning so fast, you are left to get all these depressing thoughts.. Despair is engulfing your heart and you could barely breathe above your silent cries.. What do you do?

الاية 28 من سورة الرعد

الَّذِينَ آمَنُواْ وَتَطْمَئِنُّ قُلُوبُهُم بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ أَلاَ بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ

My heart felt heavy.. It felt weak and troubled because of all the negative thoughts I was having.. I felt like I needed a blanket, I needed to wrap my heart with something so it would be whole and intact again, to place it back properly instead of having it shaking and turning.. The answer, my readers, was perfectly clear.

أَلاَ بِذِكْرِ اللَّهِ تَطْمَئِنُّ الْقُلُوبُ

Why do we lose ourselves to our darkest of times? Why do we feel so troubled when we have the solution right in front of us? Yes, ithkir Allah, pray to him, listen to Quran and just lay back and relax الله هو الحفيظ الرحيم You will be amazed at how easily your mood has been lift up, you no longer feel lost, you no longer surrender to your weakness, you will rise above it all with the help of Allah. You have trouble sleeping? Read a few verses of the Quran, the mu3awithat, put your earphones on and listen to the recitation of your favourite Quran reciter, smile and be content for we have a solution to all of our ordeals yet we act like we don't. When you turn to Him in time of your need, there's something joyous in that. There is the deep knowledge that He is going to help you. He will be there for you. He will answer to your prayers. Don't give up hope like some did.

إن الله كريم مجيب الدعاء

I think reaching to this level of realisation makes life easier for you. You know that whatever you'll go through, there's a way out. There is a way to bring joy to your heart, a way to feel peaceful and whole again. Words can't express this amazing feeling, keep working on your faith, on your connection to Him and you will definitely reach there inshAllah.

The Journey [1]

A series of posts inspired by a line in a nasheed that says;

والله مافي هذه الدنيا الذ من اشتياق العبد للرحمن

It is about a journey that I went through and would like to share it with you all.

A few nights ago I sat with my little sister and made her listen to هي جنة لحمود الخضر She was fascinated by the idea of living in Heaven eternally and the description in the nasheed made her eager to hear more about Jannah and how to get there..

It made me reflect on how far I've gotten with my own faith, with my connection to Allah. I haven't been the good Muslim so to speak for a long time, I used to go on with my prayers as a routine and never fully get into that calm state of serenity.. Until I desperately needed to reconnect with Allah. It was at this particular time of my life where I felt so alone, like I needed to know who I was and what I was in order to go about my day. Something bad happened.. It left me weak and vulnerable and plain sad. It dragged me into the hallways of depression and I thought to myself that I'd forever stay there, that this is it for me.

During many sleepless nights, I couldn't help but wonder if what I was doing to myself was rational, because I knew the way out of all this was to get back to my senses and think straight. I began to understand that everything happens for the reason, that Allah had this written for me so there is a good thing coming out of it eventually.. I learned to look at the bright side, I learned to accept the situation, embrace it even. I began feeling peaceful when I was in the darkest stage of my life and on the sound of the athan, I'd make the wudu and spread my sijaada on the floor and start praying.. It calmed me down completely, it made me realise how beautiful it is when you turn to Allah in your time of need. Whenever you feel down or hurt, just turn to the one who will always be there, who will listen to your prayers because he's السميع العليم

Sub7an Allah, no matter how far away we drift from him, He will always be there for us.

يقول عز وجل في كتابه الكريم في سورة البقرة، الأية رقم 186

{وَإِذَا سَأَلَكَ عِبَادِي عَنِّي فَإِنِّي قَرِيبٌ أُجِيبُ دَعْوَةَ الدَّاعِي إِذَا دَعَانِي فَلْيَسْتَجِيبُوا لِي وَلْيُؤْمِنُوا بِي لَعَلَّهُمْ يَرْشُدُونَ }

And when My servants ask you, [O Muúammad], concerning Me – indeed I am near. I respond to the invocation of the supplicant when he calls upon Me. So let them respond to Me [by obedience] and believe in Me that they may be [rightly] guided.
Surat Al Baqarah, verse no. 186

This is a da3wa from Allah to us; whatever you need, pray to Him.

I took comfort in the 5 daily prayers. I began to look forward to them because they were the only times that I would leave everything else that didn't matter behind me and fully be there, in mind, body and soul, focusing on what's important, on why I'm here and that's nothing but to worship Him. It gave me a sense of utter peacefulness, to feel that Allah is watching over me.. He made this happen for a reason, and what better reason than to reconnect with him?

GG's Fashion

With only a couple of episodes left of Gossip Girl for me to watch, I can't begin to express my fascination to the outfits of the show. The sense of fashion is simply sophisticated and modern, if only I had half the wardrobe they have. Blair Waldorf's wardrobe caught my attention, not only because she never (or rarely) wears jeans or sweatpants but because her mini dresses are to die for. Blair's style is classic, very Upper-East-Side and she goes for skirts, dresses and longwear. When it comes to accessories, there's always HEADBANDS! (For most of season 1 and 2, that is) Although her style seems easy to pull off, it requires a good and classical taste.

I'll leave you with my favourite looks:

Look #4 on the right, if you know me, you'll definitely guess that it's something I would wear. I adore mini dresses! Especially those with a belt under the chest. Even if it wasn't part of the dress, I'd add it as an accessory. You can never go wrong with belts, I recently had a look at H&M's collection of belts at Dubai's City Centre, gorgeous ones!

Look #2, so chic and simple, I can see myself in it with a pair of leggings instead. As you can see above, there's a quite collection of coats and suit jackets in the 2nd picture, I've always had a thing for suit jackets.

Beginning of an End

What can I say about June? It's the month that I sat for my final exams at school, the month that set the beginning of a new life and the end of an old one. It was a hectic month, one that took everything away from me, my life, and freedom yet gave them back to me at the right time. There are times when I just couldn't take it anymore, I felt so vulnerable and weak but going down that road is never easy. I decided to reflect upon the good things I have left, the great people I have in my life who wouldn't give up on me so why would I? In order to get through things you wouldn't dream of surviving, have a big amount of faith that you can. That you'll get the strength you need from prayers and a keen heart that knows Allah will always be there for his 3ibad.

Thankfully, what I perceived as the darkest point in my life was merely a glitch in the way, a stopping point to realize good things must come to an end, you might as well enjoy them while they last. You will live a certain period being in denial, afraid of what you know will happen, there's nothing wrong with that, I should know. Live as ignorant as you want to be, have high expectations, hopes and dreams and build a fairytale and decorate it with whatever lies you want, it'll eventually collapse and you'll be crushed. Don't worry, you'll get over it. Even though it seems like it's the end, that you're never going to get out of the mess you helped create with your wishful thinking, time heals everything. You won't forget or forgive, but here's this promise: You will move on.

This last year of school wouldn't have been great without my friends, we went through so much together as we've been friends for 9 years.. It's a very long time, during this time we've grown so used to each other that it would feel different having to make new friends, but like all things, we learn and things will be easier el7amdellah. Results came out on Friday and I couldn't be happier, I broke the circle I intended to break. I just hope the bigger reward is getting a scholarship in the upcoming days inshAllah. Allah kareem.

One last thing: You make your own choices. Sure, there's fate that controls everything in our life, but you have the choice of changing certain things. Like choosing to move on, not to suffer, whatever it may be, you always have a choice (except when people make the decision for you, even then, you can choose to accept and walk away) What would life be without failing, without getting to know the truth about people, without disappointments and heartache after all?